Rape survivor or rape victim?

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I was running through my upcoming keynote address at Carnegie Mellon’s MOSAIC conference for my niece, a recent university graduate, when she suddenly looked up from her phone, on which she had been taking notes.

“You can’t say that,” she said.

“Say what?” I asked.

“Victim,” she told me. “You have to say ‘survivor.'”

This was news to me. But a quick Google search showed me that I seem to be in the minority in preferring the V-word. “Survivor” is thought to be a more empowering term–a more respectful one.

Yet it isn’t for me. The word “survivor” doesn’t make me feel empowered. It makes me feel as if I’m expected to shoulder responsibility for an act over which I had no power whatsoever–one done in front of witnesses, one designed to humiliate me and remove every last shred of my dignity.

Yes–I survived it. But my self-confidence didn’t. Neither did my ability to trust people or a dozen other things I took for granted before it happened.

In the last few years, I’ve heard over and over that America is suffering from a “victim mentality”–that we are all just looking for someone else to blame for our problems. “Victim” has become a dirty word. Today it’s all about taking personal responsibility for things.

I’m happy to take responsibility for many things in my life. But not for being drugged, raped and violated with a hairbrush in front of others. I spent too many years blaming myself for what happened to me, when the responsibility rested solely with the man who did it to me. To me.

A friend I finally opened up to decades after my rape recently confided that she got tired of hearing about it. Sure, this really bad thing happened to you, she recalls thinking. But come on–get over it. Move on with your life.

And that’s what the word “survivor” means to me. It means “I don’t want to hear about it.” It means “you don’t have the right to feel victimized.”

So call me a survivor if it makes you feel better. I won’t be offended. And if you were sexually assaulted and you prefer the term “survivor,” then that’s what I’ll call you. It’s not a simple matter of one term being somehow better or more accurate than the other.

I’m both a victim and a survivor. And I’m going to call myself whichever makes me feel better on any given day.


About Jackie Fuchs

Fuchs’ television and radio appearances have included Crime Time, NPR, Huffington Post Live and The Insider. As Jackie Fox, she played bass with the '70s rock band, The Runaways.
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11 Responses to Rape survivor or rape victim?

  1. Thom Harmand says:

    Jackie, know that you can use any word you want to, feeling empowered is so vital to your psche and your soul. You are very brave. Thank you for sharing this.

  2. jennydevildoll says:

    That’s how I feel, that I’m both a victim and survivor of rape… A “victim” just means someone that bad happened to, and a “survivor” just means someone who lived through it. But somehow our culture has gotten convinced that these words also say something about a person’s character traits, and that’s not true at all.

  3. vous avez vraiment éré victime d un viol? de qui?

  4. Barbara says:

    I too am a victim and survivor. To be held responsible for the actions of someone who is physically stronger is absurd. We are survivors because we choose to not let the actions of another define our existence, even though at times the pain and memory can overwhelm us. We survive because we hold each other up in times of weakness. ❤

  5. Maggie says:

    I use the words “child abuse survivor”, but it was rape, even if no one called it rape back in the 60’s. no one really talked about it at all back then.

  6. mukhamani says:

    Yes to both victim and survivor. My son has a vision problem called Retinitis Pigmentosa. He says calling him differently abled or disabled does not really matter to him. he knows what he is. But people feel that differently abled is a better sounding word than disabled. It is all in the mind. Thank you for sharing.

  7. teresa says:

    love this…i am both victim and survivor as well…i sit on a committee of a few in a rural setting…setting the language for the community we live in going forward…i am interested in how this develops…

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